Oh my lanz. I haven't been on this blog in 2 weeks! How horribly pathetic of me. But to tell you the truth, I'm really not in the mood to write. Hardly am lately. My life is insanity. I'm living on a roller coaster that never stops or lets me off. It never stays long enough at the top to let me enjoy the great view. Just a quick glimpse, and I'm off again on this crazy-hectic ride I call my life. It's up, then it's down, it's moving fast, then its really slow. It's fun, then it's scary. I enjoy the ride, then I get sick of it and almost wish I wasn't even here. So often I feel like I put on a smile, but really I'm just faking it. Trying to hide how I really feel!

There is usually something that isn't going right. I mean, I'm a junior high student. What do I expect? But this past couple of weeks, it isn't just a little something. I'm honestly scared! Scared of the future. Scared of what is going to happen soon. Scared of losing people I love so much. I didn't know it was possible to cry so many tears. Oh man, this post is getting way too deep and depressing and personal. This is something more meant for a journal then an online blog! So I apologize. Just bear with me, I'm almost done.

SO, despite all of the hardships and struggles, there is still a lot of good going on too! A lot of good. I just keep pressing forward, and eventually my car gets to the top, and then it is fun!! So don't worry. I'm not completely depressed. Just kind of! :) I think some of my friends think I'm just a depressing person. I promise people, I'm not. So sorry I'm just no fun lately!

I have some pictures of the past few weeks to PROVE to you I am a fun person. But I can't seem to find my camera. I have looked everywhere. And it is really starting to freak me out!! Ahhh!

So anyways. Sorry for the lack of posts. Not that anybody reads this thing, so I don't really think anybody cares. But still! I'll be better! And expect pictures! (If I can find my camera! :\ ) Also. I apologize for the boring, depressing, personal, dragging, pointless post. If you read it, thank you. I'm surprised you kept going after the first paragraph!

Bye for now!

Love,

Abby

Gonna get Lighter

Okay. So my intentions of this post were to put on one of my favorite songs at the moment. Its kind of like my theme song right now, sort of? You know how sometimes you listen to a song, and it matches exactly how you are feeling, or says something you really need to hear? Yep, thats what happened when I listened to this song. But I am being somewhat computer challenged at the moment and can't figure out how to put the song on here. So, you will have to look it up on your own instead!

Get Better - Mates of States


Thank you, Maryn Jenkins, for the mix and introducing this song. You have a fabulous taste in music. I am listening to your latest mix right now! This is like, the 5th time maybe? HA. I like it.